This
week was a crazy one. We had Zone Interview Training this week and got to talk
with President Brown individually. It was so great. I told him some of the
things I have been struggling with. Being a part of the band I have been used
to being friendly and chatting it up. Over here that is sometimes considered
"Flirt to Convert". I discussed with President my concerns about if I
have been flirty. I want to be the best servant I can be. I came up with the
analogy that we are to be the "easel" not the "painting". President thought it was
a great analogy and asked if he could use it. Haha. I am trying so hard to be
the easel, but I do feel that sometimes I rely on my own gifts and talents too much. I
need to be teaching more by the spirit. It is a lesson that I am continually working hard to implement.
I also have lost my temper a few times
this week. I get so angry when people try to tell me what I believe. They watch
TV shows and/or read articles that put us in a bad light. I met a few people this
week with whom I was less than Christlike in my approach. There was a born again
christian man that I just lost it with. We got in a pretty heated argument. He called me
a false prophet and said that I was blinded by the subtle craftiness of men and
leading others down the wrong path. I usually just try to listen then bear
testimony. This time the spirit was not with me. It was a bad experience and
left me feeling hollow. We will never get someone to listen to us through
fighting back. We need to have the spirit tell us what we need to say. I
learned a lot...
We
also got some great potential investigators. We are working with a girl named Lisa. She is
amazing. She is so open minded and is praying and reading to find out if what we are teaching her is
true. We are so excited to see the changes occur in her heart.
It rained a lot
this week. Actually it rains a lot - period! haha We actually walked to the church to email today without our jackets
because the weather was so beautiful... Mistake. It's raining so hard right now. Haha.
Rain - Run - Rain!! |
I
also had another Brother Donnalley meal... If I keep eating like this I will be
so fat. I weigh 170... My legs are so big. I am losing my
hair. I get soaked very day. And "It is bliss!" I love it here!
I wish there was a
pill that instantly made me the missionary God needs me to be, but I am
striving every day. Little by little. Line upon line. I am giving my all,
talking to ALL those that I meet. That is really hard sometimes, but the days we
talk to everyone are the most rewarding--even if we have no statistics to show for
it. God asks us to be perfect in trying.
I love you. You are amazing.
Elder
Crowe
Trying on Ned's uniforms - He's a champion, and we look Good!! haha |
i find myself reading ur blogs every week and i am beyond proud of u for doing what u are doing and for staying calm(in most cases)..i dont know what it is about ur blogs but they are really interesting to read
ReplyDeletend im glad that i was nd will forever be a beyond5 fan
girl...DO WHAT YOU GOT TO DO AND SERVE WITH
HONOR..
(I REMEMBER WHEN I HAD ATTENDED A FIRESIDE
WHERE YOU HAD SHARED A SCRIPTURE FOUND IN ETHER 12:27 ND YOU SAID SOMETHING ABOUT HOW GOD WILL PULL US THROUGH OUR STRUGGLES AND I JUST WANT TO LET U KNOW THAT ALTHOUGH YOU HAVE LOST THE SPIRIT DURING THAT ARGUMENT OR WHEN YOU ARE
HAVING SUCH A BAD DAY JUST REMEMBER THAT HE
KNOWS YOUR WEAKNESS AND THAT HE'LL PULL YOU
THROUGH IT.... :)